Acceptance

It really hurts how far I've fallen. It really hurts realizing where I have come to the point, where I'm not only just as bad as the people that ruined my life, but worse because I see myself as better as them. It really hurts when I've deluded myself with a mission to do the best for both myself and the people around me, only to treat the people around me without a second thought. It really hurts when I've become comfortable with doing the exact. same. things I hated them, every single day, for doing to me.

This sucks. But it is necessary for me. This has given me clarity I haven't seen in awhile, that my issues lie deeper than the technology I use or the things that I do with my time. It also stems from how I both view others and how I treat them, and that is the thing I need to fix. I need to give up the hatred, I need to ask both to receive forgiveness and deliver it as well to the people who have wronged me. I accept I have failed walking down the path of the righteous because I have forgotten my mission without even realizing it. Change starts from within, and I have accepted that I need to do so.